Today is November 22, 2018.
I have attempted this in the past, however I am going to try it again.
My goal is simple – I am going to attempt to write a blog post every day for 365 days. I don’t know how long they will be or what they’ll say, but I am going to try to make it for an entire year.
In the past, I’ve lasted a few months, but never an entire year. Perhaps I’ll write about the Bible or scripture or random thoughts, I haven’t the slightest idea.
You’re welcome to follow this blog if you desire, however it’s probably not going to be overly interesting and I’m not quite sure how you stumbled upon it. Feel free to tell me in the comments if you want to, if you don’t, that ‘s completely up to you, dear internet reader.
Today is my 31st birthday. It’s been quite the challenging year, with plenty of ups and downs, emotional highs and emotional lows. Difficulties, struggles, challenges, quandries and just searching to try to figure out what is next. Long hospital stays, pain of the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual type, crying, self realization, empathy and just fighting the overall struggle to exist in this world that is going to Hell in a handbasket.
However, I’m alive. Right now, in this very moment, I am thankful for it.
I was able to spend Thanksgiving dinner with a family that I truly call my own second family and I enjoyed their company immensely. I was sung happy birthday for the first time in countless years and blew out candles for the first time in many years. I met a few new friends and was able to sit down at a table and enjoy a meal with people I truly care about. What else can we truly ask for? We are so blessed.
I’m not going to reveal my wish when I blew out my birthday candles here, and I don’t know if they will come true or not, but we will see. I’m not superstitious or hold any merit to that old tradition, but for some reason, I found myself making a wish, regardless.
I hope that the next year finds ample opportunity for me to help others, as that’s where I truly find satisfaction in this life. I love seeing others happy. I enjoy watching emotion on others faces, particularly joy, happiness and satisfaction of a job well done. I don’t care too much about myself, perhaps I should care more about myself as I’ve heard in the past, however, I’ll do what I can to keep myself going, however being there for others will always be the goal for me.
I could make this initial post much longer, however, for today I’m not. I believe my last bit for today will be the Bible verse of a day on a random website.
All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God. Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
The grace and providence that God offers to all is reaching more and more people, but the Bible does sadly state, and it’s the truth, that it’s few that find the path to life and the great majority are walking the broad road that leads to death. It’s a sad thing, indeed.
One thing I’ve realized and I’m realizing more and more is that we can’t force anyone to believe anything. It’s something that has to be done in their heart and by egging them on about it, it could simply be pushing them even further away. That’s one of my issues, I often care too much, but I have to let God be in control and not care so much that I make whatever it is an idol that I give more importance to than God, as that is detrimental to your very being.
We are indeed wasting away every day, I see that in my health that was definitely deteriorating over my 40 day hospital stay this summer, but one day, I won’t have to worry about health issues in the new Heaven and Earth. Inwardly though, if we’re believers and we’re growing in and focusing on Christ, we’ll be renewed day by day with grace upon grace and be given strength to make it through whatever obstacles or trials we find ourselves in.
Events might not happen the exact way we want, things might not make sense, however, we will find the strength to prevail. This life is going to be hard. The prosperity gospel is such utter nonsense that I’m not even going to go into it, however, we are going to face suffering in this life. Health wise, because gravity wins and our bodies fail.
For now though, I’m just going to do what I can, day by day and try to trust that God is in control.
One day at a time is all we can do.
As Matthew 6:34 says:
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.